"Be yourself. Above all, let who you are, what you are, what you believe, shine through every sentence you write, every piece you finish." - John Jakes

Monday, March 21, 2011

Weight Goals -VS- Exercise Goals

One reason I think I keep having set backs in this whole exercise/get in shape/lose weight thing is I'm setting the wrong goals for my achievements. Let me try to explain

Whenever I set a goal for myself it normally always has something to do with weight, examples: lose X amount of pounds in two weeks, be at X weight by this date, etc etc etc. So then I exercise and make huge achievements there, feel the best I've ever felt, do things I've never done.... but when I step on the scale and I haven't made my weight goal for whatever reason(ex: gaining muscle weight & not losing enough fat weight to balance it out) I get frustrated and feel like just a failure, which discourages me and makes me want to give up.

So I've decided I need to relook at how I create goals, instead of weight goals I should start setting exercise goals. Because when I achieve those I know it'll make me feel great and push me to continue, and with them the pounds will start coming off on their own. I asked Charlie to help me here by helping me keep track of my weight, I want to keep track of my progress but I don't want to have it be such a heavy burden on my mind like it is. So Charlie is going to help me weigh in weekly(or whatever we come up with) and he'll keep track of the weight in his records somewhere and I won't know what it is(I don't know if we'll blindfold me when I get on the scale, make me look away so I can't see the numbers... IDK we'll figure it out when I get there). That way I can focus on my real goals of getting back in shape and being more active instead of having this tunnel vision that only sees the pounds.

Once I get to Virginia and see how things are going to be I'll be able to set these new exercise goals. I'm excited about this new take on goals that I'll be doing, I think in the end this could be the solution to some of my bigger problems.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Opting Out At The Airport

When I first heard about the new scanners in airports I knew right away I would never do it unless I was forced to. It's not that I cared about the nude xray images that would be produced (though I really don't like that), it was more that they couldn't prove that the radiation levels emitted from the scanners were safe and I want no part of that.

Of course the other option is opting out of the scanner and enduring a pat down. This involves a security person rubbing their hands over your body, including your private areas. The horror stories you hear about the pat downs is enough to make anyone squirm. From asking to opt out of the scanner and the security people hollering "opt out" over & over like you were some kind of criminal, to people with medical conditions like catheters being roughly pated causing the urine to leak out all over them. Still even with the stories I want nothing to do with the machines and will take the risk.

When we first moved from Hawaii I warned my husband of this and that it might take longer for me to go through security(he didn't care either way). We had to go through security twice, once when in Hawaii and once when leaving Atlanta. Both times they had the regular metal detectors and the scanners open, & each time I got in line for the regular detectors. I got lucky each time and didn't get selected for the scanners(though Charlie did once).

But I knew I wasn't out of the woods yet, I was still traveling with my mother to California to see my sister return home from Afghanistan. I warned her about the possible delay too and she just told me to do the scanner, I told her I would not. In Tampa all they had open were the scanners so I put my carry ons on the belt and waited for my turn. With a pounding heart it came to be my turn and I told the women I would be opting out... I waited for the worst.

It never really came

She kinda seemed annoyed but she quietly spoke into her earpiece that they had an opt out and told me to stand to the side. Another women walked up to me after a bit and opened the gate to the other side of security. She asked if I would like to go to a private room or was it fine right where we were, I was fine doing it in public(if nothing else it let others see what was happening, witnesses if you will). She explained step by step what she was going to do then asked me if I understood, I said yes. She was very professional throughout the whole thing and didn't stay near my private parts for longer than needed. After she was done she tested her gloves for any traces of explosives and let me on my way. The whole experience itself wasn't that bad at all.

When we left San Diego we had to go through security again and they also only had the scanners open. I again opted out and choose the public option over the private room. While the Tampa lady was a lot nicer(the lady in San Diego seemed annoyed that she actually had to do her job, go figure) she was just as professional & I never once felt uncomfortable or mistreated.

I can only hope that from my experience people won't be as afraid of the pat down process and won't endure the scanners just cause of fear. Sure there are bad experiences/stories but there are normal experiences out there too. Next time I fly I'll opt out again, only risking the scanners if I'm being forced against my will.

Thursday, March 10, 2011


I Will Show Them.....

You & You & You. Oh & You & You. Let's Not Forget You & You Too.....

I Will Show Them All, Oh Yes I Will Show Them All.....

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Many Moons Have Passed

I can't believe it's been so long since I last wrote, but then again I can if I think back to how fast February went lol. With getting our stuff & cars shipped, the animals sent to Florida and then turning over the house & finally our own move from Hawaii it's been kinda hectic, all go go go! Then we spent a week trying to see all of Charlie's family since he had to leave to check in, I'm ready for a break lol.

I'm currently in Florida staying at my parents house with the kids. Charlie is in Virginia, he just checked in yesterday. I'll be staying here until Charlie can find us a place that will allow the kids, then once that's all settled I'll drive up there with them.

The most exciting news I have is next week my mom & I are going to California to see my sister return home from Afghanistan!! Im so excited to see her and so excited she'll be home safe again! My dad doesn't fly so he's staying back here to watch all the animals(which I appreciate more than anything cause it saved Charlie & I the hassle of finding a place for them).

Still trying to adjust to this cooler weather, it's not too bad but at times makes me miss Hawaii lol. I'm in the process of trying to set myself some new goals to work on, so once I figure those all out I'll be sure to post them. I can't say when I'm going to blog again with my "vacation" next week and all but after that is all done I'll try to post more regularly.

That's really all I have new to say, till next time!